June 2012
By the way that Boy I really liked...
I’ve given up now. I need to get over it and move on to better things and better thoughts.
Crying because they had nothing I could eat but...
“This is a place where I don’t feel alone, this is a place where I feel at...”
– To Build A Home- Cinematic Orchestra.
I can't freaking eat salad and protein OR carbs at...
Cake for breakfast in France = I don't want to...
tosurviveistowrite asked: I just saw your post about "When you feel like you're about to slip and fall... don't just let go. You can save yourself still..." -- thank you. I needed to hear that.
Lunch was basically salad fruit and "muesli" bar...
I am so scared about my lack of meeting my meal plan. People just don’t understand why I have to eat properly.
When you feel like you're about to slip and fall,
Don’t just let go. You can save yourself still. All it takes is that one last bit of energy. Pull yourself back up.
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Had a breakfast that pretty much met my meal plan....
Lunch not so much. Gosh darn it how hard is it to make gluten free dairy free MEALS?! But I’m in France. And I’m still eating enough to sustain me. It should all work out. Hopefully.
“That we all seem to feel when we’re down on our knees,
looking up to die hoping...”
– Make Believe- City and Colour.
Finding it hard to meet my meal plan.
1. No one has soy milk. Ever.
2. My host family didn’t have any gluten free bread = no real carb at dinner.
3. I can never find snacks I can eat.
Let’s hope tomorrow is better. I have managed to eat good meals though that have nearly always been balanced and haven’t killed me! That’s a start :)
bella-serenity-deactivated20120 asked: Bon voyage gorgeous!!! Xxxx
I'm in Vichy!
It’s 11:36 p.m on Saturday (I’m in the past woo) and so far it’s been fun but scary. Sitting on the plane eating literally every 3 or 4 hours made me feel disgusting and we had a two course dinner tonight AND I had potato chips for afternoon tea and I just feel like I am going to get so fat :( but anyway, tomorrow is back to regular meal times and lots of walking so it should...
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Right now, my flight is departing for my home stay...
For the first week and a half I’ll be by myself and then I’ll meet up with my Parents, so wish me luck guys!
Fight on and be strong all of you <3
“Do not be angry with the rain; it simply does not know how to fall upwards.”
– Vladimir Nabokov (via wowloverly)
daylight-dreams asked: have a wonderful time away. if you can... please please please update me. If you need anything I am only a few thousand kilometres away :) xxxx
Anonymous asked: I feel like nobody cares about me more now that im not emaciated. I went to inpatient in June of last year, gained some weight, still underweight bmi and still have that now, but I swear everyone has given up. Nobody makes me go to the doctors or get blood tests or anything. It just makes me feel like I dont deserve any help and that theres nothing wrong with me:( I dont know what to do.
Anonymous asked: what are the phases of physical recovery? like maintenance, weight restored etc.?
Anonymous asked: why are you going overseas alone? you seem so young to be doing that! you're so brave :)
Anonymous asked: Ily
Anonymous asked: I lob u
Anonymous asked: Sew much bb
Anonymous asked: Wuv Wuv Wuv wuvvvvv
Anonymous asked: You're beautiful an amazing xoxoxooxo
Anonymous asked: are u on medication?
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Last night for any questions/queries/statements,...
Speak now or forever hold your peace.
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Today, I'm simply too tired to do anything.
Physically and emotionally. Too bad I have to pack and finish my English draft and follow my meal plan and be sad whilst my friends are going to a formal and looking amazing whilst I not only feel ugly, but am ugly. And not just physically ugly - mentally ugly.
I thought that everything in my head would be better by now. I was so wrong.
Anonymous asked: will u blog while ur away?
Anonymous asked: where about are you traveling to overseas? :D
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Going overseas tomorrow by myself.
Then the formal is 4 days after I get back. Then I have the last two terms of schooling to complete. And I’ll be dancing all the time. And then I’ll finish school. And then I’ll venture out in the unknown. Maybe I’ll have a boyfriend. Maybe I’ll have a job. Maybe all my dreams will come true.
But they all depend on me not stuffing up again.
